Im not American, but i wished all my Americans visitos a Happy belated 4th of July
thanks for all the comments on my previous post about my disorder Hyperhidrosis, they calm me up to know that im not the “freaky” one to be the 1% of the population and that actually alot of people has been in the same situation with me 
Moving on, i bought 2 pair of gladiator shoes, flat and heels and i love them both, heres the picture of the Flats and the Heels, also this really hot maryjane pump shoes, arent they sexaaay
yeah, im a big fan of shoes! 
This internet connection pissed me off lately, its so slow at night (which is the time i go online after work) *grrr*
I need to see my hair dresser, ill cut off my long hair to short… ive been in this long hair style for so long and i think i need a change beside that since i went curly 2,5 months ago my hair is getting dry and start to fall off which is suck… wish me luck
and after that ill go shopping with my mom! it should be fun!
I need a new colorful layout, maybe i should make the gossip girl layout cause ive been watching it currently and somehow have this “butterfly” on my stomach when i see Chuck Bass
i know i have weird taste about guy 


I have a tough week at works, shitty customers, shitty co-workers, shitty jobs… i barely thought i just cant handle it
so im glad its all over and its weekend already and i have plan to watch Gossip Girl season one DVDs all day long!
and i also got my salary! which means… shopping time lmao…
I figured out also the FTP problems so all my hostees can log in to their account again 
Someone asked me about my disorder Hyperhidrosis, for those who dont know its a disorder characterized by excessive sweating that occurs in up to 1% of the population. The excessive sweating can occur in the hands (palmar hyperhidrosis), in the armpits (axillary hyperhidrosis), or in the feet (plantar hyperhidrosis), even though its not a dangerous disorder but its really annoying and yet gross, i mean who can handle “sweaty” people?
and it also sometimes bring down my self esteem, i talked to my doctor once about this, but he said until now theres no such thing to temporary stop this disorder but treatment of electrical stimulation will work on this for a month or two
so i keep continue my life with it, and i think i can handle with it with keeping my self clean and fashionable and confident
this disorder definetly cant keep myself to enjoy and reach the goal of mylife 
I took off my “ask me” page cause it seem stops working on Wordpress 2.5.1 “grrrr*


I finally come up with something that i like after a long long time! new layout featuring All time low… im hearing their single “Umbrella” right now
its a fun punk song and its also fun to sing a long the “Ella … Ella” part lmao.
My host finally moved into a new server which is great cause i heard pretty much bad issues about their previous host, but ever since i changed the name server, all of my hostees cant log in to their FTP *grrr* i tried to changed the FTP password on cpanel but still not work.. now im lost… i contacted Aisyah about this hopefully she can help me out
so, for all my hostees… please bare with me and be patience mkay?
I should go post my new Juicy Coutures handbag, but im too lazy to taking picture and upload it here… maybe soon.. but its pretty much look like this
Gawd… its almost the end of June, time does fly… i cant wait till June 25th to get my salary and start my online shopping habbit again lmao, cause im currently broke right now *pooooo*


Weird, ive never been loosing this much of motivation for blogging
i tried to make new layouts but failed and comes up with this ugly new layout featuring Mary-Kate Olsen… i hope i can make something decent, but hell yeah… im just failed.. poooo
at least its new..
I need to stop my shopping online habit lmao, but its fun! i need to save up some of my money for my vacation plan this year! but my Juicy Couture’s bag that i ordered online arrived today and im so in love with it! i should go post the picture here soon
i should go buy another one after i get my salary this month! see… im a shopaholic! cant help it 
I need to get back my motivation to blog, maybe an interesting life can help so i have something to share, but i guess all of you already know my life is simple and boring… but somehow i love it! :love:


Nyah…..its been a while since my last update, im not going anywhere though.. im just loosing my interest to blog or created something here
i think its quite normal, and i believe every webblogger have this kind of feeling once in a while… i found another interesting things over the net… Shopping online! lmao, i bought quite a lot these couple of weeks, shoes (like you dont know me), Anya’s wallet, shirts, Foreign Magazines and 2 Juicy Couture bags basically everything that rare to me to get here in my town… and all i got to do is waiting for the stuff to knock on my door
and trying my best to ignore the temptation to buy some more lmao.. speking about Juicy Couture.. I love Juicy Coutures stuff esp BAGS (they are so cute) and it has ZERO chance to find Juicy Coutures stuff over here in my town even on online Indonesians store 
Move onto another topic, Live and Die, thats a circle of life and everybody knows if you are alive then someday youll die, but STILL when the time is come and you seeing your loved ones died you just cant take the sad feeling! i personally think im not worry about my death, but it will killing me to see people that i love died
a couple of days ago someone that i know for half of my life died, and it was a shocking news for everybody in my house and neighbours cause she was like one of the fullspirit person and always look healthy, she was also the leader of the youth church organisation at my church.. she lived pretty near from my house and i can see her familys house from my bedroom window, its just sad… and i feel even sader when i saw her little daughter… like she will growing up without her mother from now on.. Rest In Peace Kak Isye


So, i finally bought the shoes that i showed you on my previous post
and when i wore it everybody in my office was keep commenting, like… “damn, thosekiller heels!!” yeah.. its actually have like 9-10cm high lmao and i also never been used heels that high
my Branch Manager even commented me about my shoes 
Waiting, I’m breaking down
But I can’t let you go,
I just need you to know.For what it’s worth, I tried,
For what it’s worth, it mattered to me..
I MISS YOU…
Im in sad mood right now actually, i miss someone and it hurts
i should make this post as private with password protection to a more deeper blog to share.. cause some of my co-workers and friends know about this site…. maybe later…. or maybe not …
More into brighter note, i put a new layout featuring Lindsay Lohan, not really a fan but i just randomly picked the pictures and made this one, i dont really like it but i like the css and the bright colors, let me know what you think anyway
oh also Happy June! i cant believe its half of the year already! geeeezzz…


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BRENDA. Brendita. N-dha.
31/10/1983. 24 years old. Manado city. Proudly
INDONESIAN
Time: 07:55 pm
Date: June 26th 2008
Doing: Browsing
Drinking: Diet Tea
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Reading: Death Note
Wishing: Life isnt THIS tough
Weather: HOT
Thinking: Life is Tough!
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